“The gardens are significantly overgrown,” the agent noted, looking through the window at the beds Peggy had planted and maintained for 40 years. “We’ll need to bring in professional landscaping crews to clean all that up before we can list. First impressions are everything in this market.”
Those were Peggy’s gardens. Every rose bush, every perennial, every carefully chosen plant. Her hands, her work, her vision. Now they were just overgrown obstacles to a profitable sale.
The nights were when true fear took hold. Peggy would lie awake in the master bedroom—Steven had graciously allowed her to stay there since the furniture needs to stay in place for staging purposes anyway—and her mind would spiral through increasingly catastrophic scenarios. She was 68 years old. She had no job, no career, no recent work experience that would mean anything to potential employers.
The last time she’d worked had been 1984, 40 years ago, as a secretary. Who would hire her now? What could she possibly do? The Milbrook property was almost certainly worthless, exactly as Catherine had described. Maybe she could sell it for fifty or sixty thousand if she was extremely lucky.
That might last her three or four years if she was incredibly frugal. And then what? Seventy-two years old and destitute, dependent on charity or government assistance, living in some subsidized facility for the elderly poor.
Some nights the fear was so overwhelming that Peggy couldn’t breathe properly. Her heart would race, her chest would tighten, and she’d get up and pace the bedroom in the dark, trying desperately to calm herself down, while her mind painted vivid pictures of homelessness and despair. Other nights, the fear would transform into rage so intense it surprised her.
How dare Richard do this to her? How dare he let her spend 40 years thinking they were partners, building a life together, believing she was secure, only to reveal in death that she’d been nothing more than paid help? How dare he choose his entitled, selfish children over the woman who devoted her entire adult life to him?
But rage required energy that Peggy was rapidly depleting, and maintaining anger is exhausting when you’re simultaneously terrified. So mostly she just felt numb, going through the mechanical motions of packing up a life that had turned out to be built on lies. She packed three suitcases of clothes, throwing away most of what she owned because what was the point of keeping it?
These were the clothes Richard had wanted her to wear, the persona he’d wanted her to project. She packed two boxes of truly personal items: photographs from before her marriage showing her parents and her younger self, letters her mother had written her over the years, a few books that had belonged to her grandmother. That was it. Forty years of life reduced to three suitcases and two boxes.
On day 28, Peggy was standing at the kitchen sink when she overheard Steven and Catherine talking in the dining room. They either didn’t know she could hear them or didn’t care.
“I honestly cannot believe Father left her anything at all,” Catherine was saying, her voice carrying clearly. “That Milbrook property is probably worth $50,000 at most. He should have left her absolutely nothing.”
“He felt guilty,” Steven replied. “Forty years is a long time to string someone along, even if she was essentially just the help. The Milbrook place was his way of easing his conscience without actually reducing what we got.”
“Well, she should be grateful we’re being so civilized about this transition,” Catherine said. “Most women her age with absolutely no skills and no family would end up in subsidized housing or homeless shelters. At least she’ll be able to sell that dump and have a little nest egg for a few years.”
They actually laughed together, the casual cruelty of people who’d never struggled for anything, who’d never worried about having a roof over their heads or food to eat. Peggy stood at that sink, gripping the edge so hard her knuckles went white, and she wanted to scream. She wanted to throw something. She wanted to march into that dining room and tell them exactly what she thought of their entitlement and their cruelty and their complete lack of basic human decency.
But she didn’t, because 40 years of training had taught her to swallow her voice, to avoid confrontation, to be the gracious woman who never made scenes. The conditioning held even now, even after losing everything.
On her final morning in the house, Peggy woke early and walked through each room one last time. She’d expected to feel profound sadness, to be overwhelmed by 40 years of memories. Instead, she felt almost nothing.
The master bedroom, where she’d slept beside Richard for four decades, was just a room, four walls, a window, furniture that had never truly been hers. The guest bedrooms she’d maintained like shrines for stepchildren who’d visited as rarely as possible. The living room where she’d played hostess to people who’d barely seen her. The kitchen where she’d cooked thousands of meals that went largely unacknowledged.
The only place that hurt was the garden, standing among the roses she’d planted that first optimistic spring, the herb garden she’d created from love of cooking, the perennial beds she’d designed to bloom in sequence from March through November. This was the only space in 40 years that had felt authentically hers, and now it would belong to strangers who’d never know the woman who’d created it.
At 1:00 p.m., Peggy loaded her car: three suitcases, two boxes, the wedding photo she’d taken from the mantle despite Steven’s protest that it was technically house property. Steven arrived at 1:30, early, clearly wanting to ensure she actually left on time.
“The movers will be here at 2,” he said, not quite meeting her eyes. “I’ll supervise everything and drop the house keys at Marcus’s office this afternoon.”
“Steven,” Peggy heard herself say, her voice quiet but carrying a weight she hadn’t known she possessed, “do you have any idea what it’s like to give someone 40 years of your life and be told it meant nothing?”
Steven’s face flushed red.