“Hey there, Sarah,” she said, checking my chart. “I’m Rachel, and I’m going to be your night nurse. How are you feeling?”
“Terrible,” I said honestly.
She pulled up a chair and sat down, giving me her full attention.
“Yeah, I heard what happened with your parents. That’s… there aren’t really words for how messed up that is.”
I started crying again. I seemed to do nothing but cry that day. Rachel didn’t tell me to stop or that everything would be okay. She just handed me tissues and waited.
When I finally calmed down, she said, “I’m not going to lie to you, Sarah. The next few years are going to be hard. Cancer treatment is rough. But you know what? You’re tougher than cancer. You’re tougher than parents who don’t deserve you. And you’re not alone. I’m going to be here every step of the way.”
“You don’t even know me,” I said.
“Not yet, but I’m going to. And I have a feeling you’re pretty remarkable.”
That night after she’d finished her rounds, Rachel came back to my room with a deck of cards. We played go fish until 2 a.m. and she told me about her life. She was divorced, no kids of her own, had always wanted to be a mother, but it hadn’t worked out. She lived in a small house 15 minutes from the hospital, had a cat named Pancake, and was obsessed with murder mystery podcasts.
“Why nursing?” I asked at one point.
“My little brother had leukemia when I was 18,” she said quietly. “He beat it. He’s 28 now, married, has a kid. But I remember what it was like watching him go through treatment. I remember the nurses who made a difference and the ones who were just doing a job. I wanted to be the kind who makes a difference.”
“Did your parents abandon him?” The question came out before I could stop it.
“God, no. My whole family rallied around him. My parents went broke paying for things insurance didn’t cover, and they never once complained. That’s what parents do, Sarah. Real parents.”
Over the next month, as I went through induction chemotherapy, Rachel became more than my nurse. She became my advocate, my protector, and my friend.
When I was too sick to eat, she’d sit with me and tell stories until the nausea passed. When I lost my hair, she showed me photos of herself from her own bad hair phase in high school, until I laughed. When I had nightmares about being alone forever, she held my hand until I fell back asleep.
My parents didn’t visit, not once. My caseworker, Margaret, said they’d signed full surrender papers, giving up all parental rights. Jessica was busy with SAT prep and college applications. I was truly on my own, except I wasn’t because Rachel was there.
On day 28 of my hospital stay, when the induction phase was complete and I was in remission, Dr. Patterson came in with good news.
“You’re responding beautifully to treatment, Sarah. We can move to outpatient care now. You’ll need to come in regularly for chemo, but you won’t have to live here.”
“Where will she go?” Rachel asked immediately. She was technically off duty, but had stayed late, as she often did.
“Foster care,” Margaret said. She was there, too, always coordinating my placement. “I have a family lined up. They’re experienced with medical needs.”
“I want to take her.”
Everyone looked at Rachel.
“I want to foster her. I’m already approved. I did the training two years ago, but never had a placement. I can do this. I want to do this.”