I sat at the corner table of the Riverside Beastro, watching sunlight dance across the water while my parents ordered their third round of mimosas. It was Sunday morning in Portland, and the brunch crowd hummed with weekend energy.
My brother Jeffrey had chosen this place naturally. He always picked venues where he could be seen, where his expensive watch caught the light just right.
“Barbara, you look tired,” my mother said, her voice dripping with concern that fooled no one at our table. “Still working those long hours at the hospital?”
I was a pediatric nurse at Providence Medical Center, and yes, I worked long hours—night shifts, double shifts, weekends. Children did not schedule their emergencies around anyone’s convenience, but my mother made it sound like a character flaw rather than a career.
“The schedule has been intense,” I admitted, taking a sip of my coffee. “We had a difficult case this week—a seven-year-old with acute appendicitis who came in at midnight.”
“How noble,” Jeffrey said, not looking up from his phone. At thirty-two, my brother had perfected the art of dismissive multitasking.
“Meanwhile, I just closed the Henderson account,” he added. “Three point two million in revenue for the firm.”
My father beamed like someone had pinned a medal to his chest.
“That’s my boy,” he said. “Partners before forty. I guarantee it.”
Jeffrey worked at a commercial real estate firm downtown. He wore suits that cost more than my monthly rent and drove a car that could have paid off my nursing school loans twice over.
Our parents had helped him with his MBA, his first apartment, his investment portfolio. They called it supporting ambition, the way you call a golden child’s privilege “potential.”
When I had asked for help with my nursing certification fees six years ago, they had suggested I learn to budget better.
“Three point two million,” my mother repeated, reaching over to squeeze Jeffrey’s hand. “Your father and I are so proud.”
“Barbara, did you hear that?”
“I heard,” I said evenly. “Congratulations, Jeffrey.”
“Thanks,” he said, finally glancing up.
His smile was sharp.
“How much do nurses make these days? Fifty thousand? Sixty?”
“Jeffrey,” my father said, like he was scolding him, but he was smiling too. “Don’t tease your sister.”
“I’m not teasing,” Jeffrey replied. “I genuinely don’t know. It just seems like a lot of work for…”
He didn’t finish, but the rest of the sentence sat there anyway.
For what I earned. For what I was worth.
The waiter brought our food, and I focused on my omelet while my family discussed Jeffrey’s latest triumph. Apparently, the Henderson account was just the beginning.
He had three more prospects lined up, each one more lucrative than the last. My parents hung on every word, as if his success was oxygen.
“Oh, before I forget,” my mother said, pulling out her phone. “Your father and I have decided on Hawaii for this December. Two weeks on Maui.”
“Jeffrey and his girlfriend will join us.”
“Jennifer,” Jeffrey corrected. “She’s excited. Never been to Hawaii.”
“Neither have I,” I said quietly.
My mother waved her hand like the thought was mildly inconvenient.
“Well, you’re welcome to come if you can get the time off,” she said, “though I know how difficult that is with your schedule. Plus, the resort is quite expensive. Twenty-five hundred per person, not including airfare.”
I did the math automatically, because numbers were one of the ways I kept myself calm.
Twelve thousand minimum, probably more.
“That sounds lovely,” I said, meaning it. Despite everything, I loved my parents. I wanted them to enjoy their retirement.
“You two deserve a nice vacation.”
“We thought so, too,” my father said. “After all, we worked hard our entire lives. Time to enjoy the fruits of our labor.”
Jeffrey looked at me then, really looked at me, and something cruel flickered in his eyes.
“Must be nice, right, Barbara?” he said. “Taking expensive trips, living comfortably.”
“Of course, some of us had to work for it.”
“I work,” I said, keeping my voice level. “Forty-eight hours this week alone.”
“Sure,” Jeffrey replied, “but let’s be honest about the difference between working hard and working smart. Nursing is fine if you want to be comfortable with mediocrity, but real success requires ambition.”
My mother nodded thoughtfully, like she was listening to a TED Talk.
“Jeffrey has a point, sweetheart. You were always content with just getting by.”
“Even in school, you did the minimum to pass rather than pushing yourself to excel.”
That was not true. I had graduated with honors while working two part-time jobs, but they had already forgotten that, or maybe they had never noticed it in the first place.
“I save lives,” I said softly. “Children’s lives.”
“Of course you do,” my father said, placating. “And we appreciate that. Society needs nurses.”